One day...

Ok sooo... ma5al9t chapter 20 and im still working on it fa here is the random i wrote and inshala lama ard ilbait akaml 20 and post it tomorrow cause im going out now!

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She stared at the mirror. She was staring at this figure and at this face she couldn't recognize anymore. It made her feel like she was standing across from a stranger. It seemed like the mirror in front of her was actually a window. She stared this person straight in the eye. Trying to recognize the person she has become. But nothing. Nothing clicked. Nothing made sense.

   She has sculpted herself into a new person. She despised this new woman she was staring at. Envied her for her happiness. For her ability to never over analyze things anymore. To always say that things will make a turn. This new her has managed to break some walls that were built years ago to shelter herself from anymore pain. Enough walls have been broken to allow people to think she is happy.

   She has taught herself to smile. Not any smile, but one of those smiles that makes people think She must have everything she wants in life to smile confidently and sincerely. They don't know what actually is behind this lovely smile and those warm eyes.

   She has mastered the art of smiling with her eyes. She can easily convince someone. You know how people usually look someone in the eye to know whether they are lying or not, or whether they are actually fine or trying to hide something, or how you search an answer by looking someone in the eye. She has taught herself to deceive people. No one can do that with her. She always made her eyes look like they were twinkling and happy and that stars and hearts are always jumping about in her head. She overcame the hate and pain that used to fill and control her.  

   The image in the mirror became to change to a small young girl that actually had stars in her eyes. She didn't know who that was at first. She didn't realize who her memory had brought up this time then she saw the small mark across her little girls forehead. She remembers now. The little girl is her. It was her before her life completely changed. Before her mother was murdered and slaughter like a dead animal in front of her by her father when she was only 7.

   She wanted to warn this little girl of what life has in store for her, but she couldn't. This was only her memory. An image that would soon fade away. She lifted her arm up and look at it in the mirror. She examined the huge knife mark that hasn't gone away after all these years. It was a constant reminder of that horrid day, of her dark past but it was also a reminder of how she pulled herself out of this dark hole she has dug for herself.

   She looked back into her own eyes. The little girl has vanished. It was her again. She smiled and saw how her eyes automatically sparkled. She always did that so that people won't know how sad she actually was inside. The bathroom door opened and someone has walked in. She didn't notice as she was consumed in her own thoughts.

   Arms wrapped themselves around her and she snapped back to reality and felt like she was home and safe in these arms. It was her husband. "Your thinking about that night right?" She nodded still keeping that smile plastered across her face. Only he knew of her secret and how she taught herself to keep her feelings bottled up and not let anyone in and to know when she is sad. But even he couldn't tell when she was genuinely smiling or if it was one of the lessons she taught herself as a child and mastered.

   One day... One day she will stop the automatic shelter she built for herself as a way to escape peoples question. One day she will forget the past and forgive and live truly happy... One day.