Rebound Chapter 49: Digits

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   A month passed and Razan still thinks about what 7amad meant. After that night she heard nothing from him. Aseel and Fahad hadn't come back from their honeymoon and had 2 weeks left. Razan was bored out of her brains but since she started working and her routine changed she felt her life change slightly as well. She met new people at work but none of them were the same as her beloved friends.
 
   As the days went by, she came to a conclusion that what 7amad said was just out of anger. If he actually meant something it he would have been done something by now. She assumed he was back in Italy and buried under files and files of work.

   The only alternative explanation to what he said would be that he got married. Maybe that's what he meant by the last sentence he said. She couldn't forget that night. He showed numerous sides of him. The angry side, the jealous side, the loving side, the caring side and last but not least the scary side. She couldn't deny that he actually scared her and she took his words as a threat. But she also couldn't forget the nice moments. That kiss. Her first kiss. Why did it have to end. If only time could stand still.

   As much as she wanted to run into his arms and tell him that she wants to spend the rest of her life being right next to him, she just couldn't. Other people are involved and she knows exactly well what they will go through if she goes back to 7amad. She knows what each person who is involved will say, think and feel. Razan saw it around her. She the reactions of the friend, the mother, the father, the people around them and also her reactions. There was no way on earth she could be the reason that would cause other people to feel everything her and her family and friends felt and went through. It just isn't right.
 
   One day the usual happened, her mother got a call mn wa7da ina wldha eb 5a6re yshofha w yabe ya56bha. But as always, Razan immediately refused.  Her parents had enough of her stubbornness and wasn't going to let this one pass. Razan's father got involved and was determined to do whatever it takes to make Razan actually consider the guy.

   "Bs Razan, e7na tsahlna ma3ach wayd, laima muta btmen chthe? may9er kil ma t8admlch wa7d gbl ma 7tan tshofena wla tsm3en 3anna shay tarfthena 3la 6ool!! shno nawya tg3den 6ool 3omrch chthe bs 3ashan ma5thaitay 7amad?? Fe alf wa7d a7san mna w ytmanonch!" As mad as her father was, he stayed cool and hoped that reasoning with her might get them somewhere. "La yuba mu 3shan 7amad bs ana mabe atzawaj al7en, mu '3a9b ilzwaj." 

   It was because of 7amad. Razan doesn't think any man could fill his shoes. "Ashoof lama 7amad t8admlch kntay tben tzawjain w ma3ndch mane3, shno ili t'3ayar al7en??" Razan could't explain herself since they don't know the whole story "mat'3ayr shay...bs may9er kil ma a7ad dag ta'39bony ag3ad w artaz jdam ilnas w ana mu 3ajbny ilwath3 wla rathya ble ga3d y9er.. baba trtha ina ana ga3da aswe shay ga3d yzed hamy? trtha ina ili ga3da aswe mu ga3d ysa3dne bs ga3d y9a3b klshay eb 3ainy?" She badly wanted to tell him exactly what she holds in her heart but he just won't understand.

   "La 6ab3an mu rathy, bs trthain ta7rema mn ina nfra7 fech? w enshof 3yalch? ana w omch manbe shay. nabe ma9la7tch nbech tnsain ilmathy w ili 9ar wt3shen 7yatch, ilnas kilaha ga3da t3esh 7yate and all your doing is living in the same moment over and over again and refusing to move on!!" Unlike Razan, her father was able to say every single word he was feeling. Every single word that was bouncing about in his head. "Baba please! I am moving on im not stuck in the same time and place, but this is my way of moving on and nothing changed bs mabe atzawaj al7en??"

   "Mdam mat'3ayr shay, 3shan 5a6re, itha 9j t7ben oboch w t3zena, ra7 tg3den ma3a hal rayal w tfakren fe 3adl, w itha maly shay eb glbch...saway ili tbena." With that, he got up and left her. Even though he was certain she can't say no to what he just asked of her, but there was this little doubt he couldn't push aside and it was actually scaring him.

   For the next few days Razan knew what she had to do but she didn't want to. Not because she refused to get married, or because she thinks no one can replace 7amad, but because she feared that she might actually like him and would think he is a great gentlemen. She was scared that she might consider him even if it was for a second.

   2 nights before the visitors were due to come, something inside her kept whispering asking her to contact 7amad. It wasn't asking for anything, all it wanted was a comforting voice. After 4 hours of deep thinking and after realizing she didn't have 7amad's number in Italy, she found no harm in dialing his kuwaiti number just to make herself feel better. Just to stop the whispering in her head. Since she was certain it would be switched off, she grabbed her phone and dialed the digits that she would never forget.

   A few seconds later, she was surprised when she actually heard it ringing. At first she wanted to end the call but something inside her said he wasn't going to answer for sure, she just wanted to feel the possibility of her hearing his voice. So she decided she would wait until the call ends on its own. After about 8 rings, it goes silent, she heard a deep breath and a sleepy husky voice "Aloo..."

   She put her hands over her mouth forcing it shut and preventing any type of sound to be transmitted through the phone. Razan froze and was scared of answering back. It seemed like 7amad didn't know it was her or he would have said something. Maybe he just didn't read the caller ID or could he have actually deleted her number? After fighting back and biting on her lip so she wouldn't say hi back, she pulled the phone away from her ear and lightly placed her thumb on the end button but just left it there.

   Razan felt her heart aching. She shouldn't have done that. She shouldn't have called. She has made everything harder and her decisions now aren't any better than before. She was hoping 7amad would end the call and make this easier on her but he didn't...