Rebound Chapter 41: Messages

   As the moon emerges from behind the clouds that were scattered across up there, it illuminates the sky. There were a few stars sparkling around the moon accessorizing the beautiful view. Both Razan and 7amad were looking at the scene but from different places. Razan was sitting in her balcony and 7amad was sitting on his favorite chair by the window. The both of them were thinking about love. They were thinking about how their love evolved, how it grew. Razan remembered the good days, the good moments they shared. The little moments that mean more than anything, the sweet words, the small gestures. Those were the things that made the difference.

   7amad remembered the first time he saw her. He was so mesmerized by her beauty by her softness. He remembered when he first decided he was going to propose. When he first knew she was the one he wanted to wake up to every morning. So he decided he didn't want his memories and also Razan's memories to be tainted by ugly and sad moments. He wanted to remember the good days. All he ever wanted to remember was the happy Razan. The decision was made. He was certain that this was the right thing to do. His only hope was that this doesn't backfire.

   Razan had just opened her iTunes and began playing her favorite playlist. It was mixture of genres. She had arabic, english and instrumentals that range from hip-hop to country to classic. As one of her favorite songs by Alicia Keys began to play her phone began to beep. She decided to ignore and make her a sandwich to eat first.

   The ingredients she needed were placed on the counter, the tomato was sliced, the lettuce was the exact size needed for her sandwich, the cheddar cheese slice was waiting to be melted and the big slice of turkey was neatly folded over. She grabbed the first slice of toast and spread some cheese on it. Then she arranged the other things on top of each other. First the turkey, then the lettuce, then the tomato and then the cheddar cheese. Razan grabbed her plate and placed in the oven, set the timer on 2 minutes and closed the door allowing the heat to melt the cheese.

   She remembered the message that was waiting to be opened on her phone. Razan stepped out of the kitchen and walked to the table grabbed her phone then walked out on the balcony as she waited for her sandwich to be ready. She opened the message and read the senders name. She was surprised, she definitely wasn't expecting a message for 7amad.

I've give all the space you need if thats what it takes. Just remember im here waiting for when you decided to give me my chance to explain. I love you and always will wifey :**

   That was exactly what she wanted. Space. But even though she was given what she was asking for she was hurting more now. Her heart ached more. She somewhat felt like he was giving up on her. But he isn't he's waiting for her. He said he's waiting. She felt a knot forming in her throat. She began swallowing in attempt to stop that knot from forming what she couldn't as the tears began to fill up her eyes blurring her vision. She felt helpless. She didn't know what to do. Razan couldn't understand why she refused to give him a chance. She loved him so much but something inside her stopped her from listening to him. The more she wanted to ignore her reasons the stronger she felt about them.

   Within seconds she was sitting on the floor at the corner of the balcony crying her eyes out. She was crying with so much pain. Her heart was about to pop out of her chest cavity. Her tears were falling from her eyes uncontrollably. Her grasps were loud they were heartbreaking. She wanted this to stop. She wanted to go back to the good days. Razan heard the over beeping announcing her sandwich ready. She wanted to ignore it but she used the sound of the beep to help her calm down. She synchronized her breathing with the slow beeps that were coming from the oven timer. She closed her eyes. About a minute later she managed to calm herself down.

   It took so much energy to push herself off the floor and to stand up on her own two feet. She felt weak. She missed him terribly. She missed his smell. She missed his eyes. She missed his voice. She missed everything about him but for some odd reason it wasn't enough for her to give him a chance to win her back.

   She had lost her appetite but didn't want to throw the sandwich away. Razan switched the timer off but kept the sandwich in the oven to keep it warm. She thought that Aseel might not have had dinner yet and would like a sandwich to eat.

   Right now all she wanted to do was sleep to escape the feelings she is experiencing and to escape from this world. She had a long day ahead of her tomorrow filled with work and studying. She went to her room grabbed a clean pair of undies and her light blue shorts with its white tank top and placed them on the end of her bed. Her towel was already in the bathroom. A hot shower felt like the best thing that would put her to sleep immediately once she lays her head on the pillow.

   The heat of the water was soothing and relaxing. She instantly felt more sleepy to she quickly lathered her hair with he shampoo and washed her hair then scrubbed her body with her coconut shower gel. The smell of the coconut and pineapple from her shampoo was filling up the bathroom. The combination of the two produced a delicious smell.

   She finished her shower and wrapped herself with her towel and went to her room. She dried herself off and got into her clothes. She sat on the chair of her dresser and combed her wet hair. Without bothering to even dry it she went into bed with heavy eyes and a heavy heart. She was messing about on her phone then without noticing she opened the file that had all of 7amad's messages in it. She read a few then closed it. With her phone in her hand she got out of bed once again, went to her jewelry box and got out the ring 7amad gave her. She held it so close to her heart and jumped back into bed. With her phone in one hand and the ring in the other she drifted of the sleep allowing her subconscious to take her to wherever it pleases.

   7amad was having his dinner infront of the TV when he heard his phone vibrating. Without giving it much thought he opened the message with his eyes still glued onto the TV. He wanted to quickly read the message to get back to his show.

We won the case! I'm officially a free woman who is responsible for herself! Thank you 7amad, I wouldn't have overcome this without. I love you so much!
Jenna :*

   Now his eyes were glued onto the phone and he completely forgot about the TV.